Finding My Stride
As a kid I was always a runner. I ran everywhere. Growing up my parents neighbours always commented on how much I ran around, how much energy I had, how I couldn't keep still. As an adult I've kept a lot of this energy. I actively walk most places, not only to get those steps in but because I know if I'm not active every single day I will be pacing the office by 3pm.
I've always seen running in my life as a parallel for who I am as a person. I am always on the go. I can't sit still for a moment. I recently told a co-worker that I tried to take last December off work between contracts as some time for myself between jobs. That lasted 3 days before I got bored of sleeping in and taking life at a leisurely pace and needed to get my fingers into a project. I've always been described as a person who is 'stereotypical type A.' I'm eit
In my life I've always surrounded myself with like minded people. My friends are all successful women and men who like myself give it their all, whether it being working 12 - 14 hour days, taking on multiple side hustles and even starting their own companies, we all have active social lives. Recently a group of my friends and I wanted to get together for dinner and actually had to create a doodle to find out when people were free! We all joked said 'ah yes, this is 30!' but is it like this for most people? I'm not quite sure.
Earlier this fall I had a bit of a wakeup call via a friend of mine. After working 14 hour days and not taking any real time off for about a year and a half he landed himself in the hospital due to stress. He stayed there for three days getting better and then was ordered to take a leave of absence from work. Luckily his workplace valued him and granted him 2 months off work to take care of himself.
This event impacted me so much because I saw a lot of myself in this friend. I generally start working first thing in the morning at 6am from the gym (checking emails, getting a jump on what is coming down the pipe) and work late into the night, generally leaving the office at 7pm and then continuing to work from the couch until I almost fall asleep right there. I try to eat healthy and make time for the gym but generally these things haven't been happening due to an active working social life (eg. work events) and my inability to say no to things. I seriously suffer from the worst Fear of Missing Out (FOMO).
Although it's not 2018 yet I've decided to make a resolution earlier. Why do I need to wait until a new year comes around to make a resolution? Exactly, yo don't! So, this is the year that I'm going to take a step back and 'find my stride.' Am I quitting my job? Hell no, I love my job! Am I going to find a bit more of a work life balance? Yes.
In running, coaches will often tell you you need to find your stride. Your stride is somewhere where you are comfortable. Somewhere you are still challenged but you know you can still enjoy the race. This is what I need to do in my life. I need to find my stride.